Sunday, October 6, 2019

Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde


                                                     Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde

                 Lazy afternoon, but had to work – to get that job done. Wanted to clean the attic as it was in a bad shape for quite some time. I sat down to clean and dust my books, which had accumulated on the cover and the room had caught a little mold, which gave a little stink probably because of the fungus that had grown all around it. I began dusting books one after the other , and the dust exposed many favorite stories of my childhood. While cleaning the attic, the heaviest stack of books just fell down in front of me and on the top of the books was the book that flashed like a jet through my memory and the book was “Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde”.

         This book had one character who had different shades – a good person and a bad character. There was the good Doctor Jekyll, who was this good doctor who did his work of treating patients and also lived a good life, was a Catholic fulfilling all his duties and the other character to come into his life was a more sinister person, evil to the gut . Along with his work, he was battling with evil urges that he wanted to do , and these were not befitting to a person of his nature.

    Years ago, I read this as a story and went through it, as a story. But now, after receiving and understanding the Catholic faith, things are a little different in the way I would see the story. You see,
Dr Jekyll is like the Catholic who strives for purity in life, and to keep himself in Christ. However there are temptations that influence a person to sin, and give up the robe of purity. In the case of Dr Jekyll, the devil increases his attack on pure souls who are continuously striving for chastity.

During his research, Dr Jekyll creates a serum as in a casual manner is his way of wanting to walk on the wild side and to express an animalistic behavior , but also to stay within the boundaries of civilized society, as he had a reputation to maintain being a highly esteemed doctor. Also was the theory that he believed that man had two sides – the good side and the bad side, like the soul and original sin, which we are bound by – the original sin that keeps dragging us back to the pit of evil and the soul pulling us towards God and Dr Jekyll wanted to separate the two sides and rid the world from evil.

Dr Jekyll speaks to the medical community about his theory and asks for a willing volunteer, but is refused by the Community. Dr Jekyll was experimenting with animals to see – if anything would happen but is left disappointed. He tries different options , one of them asking for a volunteer from an asylum, but is denied again. Finally, left with no option, he only has one person left to inject- himself and that is the only way for him to find out.

    So he prepares himself- the cotton swab rubbed with alcohol on the arm , and the needle pierces his vein releasing the serum into his body. As the serum circulates in the network of veins, Dr Jekyll waits …
anticipating the result. What would happen? He wondered. As the minutes passed by, the lights dimmed before his eyes and he blacked out.

  He regained consciousness after some time , and this time he felt a little weak and dizzy and got up to walk  and as he stood up, he saw the mirror in front of him where he saw a short dwarf of a man, with very ugly features and a hunch on his back. He screamed in fright, afraid who this man was and his fright gradually turned to delight, as he saw that he had discovered his evil side. Though he sweated a lot and was weak with trembling hands, and fell quite often.

So why was this so? Evil being so weak. This is not what we hear most of the time , as evil is promoted as a very strong force. So why the weakness?? The reason being that Dr Jekyll being a person of good upbringing and doing good deeds all his life had weakened the evil inside him. Just like Saints weakened the evil inside them by practicing prayer and good deeds. That is the reason a good Spiritual life is required. It is a weapon against the devil and the flesh.

Now that Mr. Hyde was let out, and he had got a hand in the world, and also as Dr. Jekyll knew this was an outlet for him to express his vile desires, he encouraged Hyde and supported him . Hyde goes around town committing all the bad things- gambling, robbing, fighting and sleeping with prostitutes. In the process, Jekyll enjoys his bad side as he sees all his desires being fulfilled. Things he desired to do in his life. When we give in to sin, it starts growing within us and starts consuming us like worms that eat on meat left decaying, the decaying being our carnal desires and the worms eating it up to get the nutrition to make them strong.

Hyde grew in strength from the evil he did and progressed to different shades of evil – each one darker than the next. Jekyll participated with him, but was able to control him with the serum as he turned back  to himself. But as time passed by, Hyde begin to transform on his own, and quite frequently.

Such is the nature of evil !!!  Evil habits and addictions take control of your soul, and start chewing on the strength of good. Dr. Jekyll got tangled in the web of evil as Hyde gained strength and started becoming the spider crawling around him. At first Jekyll enjoyed the desires , but with the passing of time started to lose his spirit for the things as he wanted a taste of bad things, but now he had come to a point where he was made to eat the whole dish, and he did not want it.

The same things that happen to sinners, as they fall into Depression, and resort to alcohol and drug to get rid of their depression. However, it leads them to further complications as these are temporary remedies. How many times have we come across rich men who have got everything in life, had done everything and still have an emptiness in their heart !!

Hyde was getting all he wanted, but still had despair in his heart as the evil was overcoming him. And the serum was the only thing that was stopping Hyde from taking over. There was a fight between two people now, to take over, and Dr Jekyll also discovered that the batch of serum had finished , and he had to order a new batch of serum which did not work, which meant that Jekyll could stay transformed as Mr. Hyde.

Could this serum be called Grace, in a kind of way? Because the serum that turned him to Hyde also turned him back to Jekyll. Grace is what we lose when we sink into evil , and are pulled slowly in the quicksand which takes us far away from the light, for God can try to save us, but if we don’t try back we go down … slowly towards the pit.

  But there is always forgiveness and Mercy of  God the Father, as he waits for every single child of his to join him in the Kingdom, with his son Jesus and Mother Mary and the Saints. The Mercy of God is infinite, where if a person jumping to his death repents could be delivered in nanoseconds to Heaven.

Poor Dr. Jekyll in his despair to avoid Hyde from taking over his body killed himself. Could he have repented in that time? Could he have received deliverance. Only God Knows.

Saturday, August 10, 2019

St . John the Baptist

               

                                                                    St. John the Baptist

                                                        


       I woke up to a blasting sound on the 24th June . The sound was coming from  the streets outside my window. There was a lot of commotion going on and I was wondering what it was about. Annoyed I looked out of the window and saw some celebrations going on. I enquired what was going
on, and the  reason why it was happening. It was the feast of San Joao ( or St. John the Baptist). The celebrations had already started for the day. The chapel was near my house in Goa and the procession was going towards the chapel. As the procession went towards the chapel I thought about St John the Baptist. M,
Many of the people who were celebrating this great saint did not know much about him. They celebrated the feast as it was a matter of custom and a source of enjoyment, with a lot of fun and frolic happening. No issues about that but people need to know the reason of the feast that they are celebrating.
  Who is this great saint they are celebrating for? Why are these celebrations done for him. Why do they jump in the river for him. What is his source. To begin with people think about baptism when they think about St. John because he was the one who baptised Christ and informed the people of the Messiah, bringing many to our Lord Jesus Christ.
  St. John was a cousin of the baby Jesus and the son of St. Anne and St.Joaquim. At the time when Mother Mary paid a visit to St. Anne , John was filled with joy at the presence of the Lord and kicked in his mother’s womb, and he was cleared of original sin.
Throughout his life, he preached of the coming of the Messiah Jesus who would come to save the world and was the one who baptized Jesus . Through him many Jews and gentiles were to come to Christ, and receive the wisdom of the Church
He always asked the people of the world to repent by saying that  “ The Kingdom of God is at hand” and to repent of their evil and sinful ways.
Living a very modest life, he wore a thick rugged camelskin and lived off the produce of the land. He ate things like locusts and honey. What a simple life for this grand prophet of God. To live a life that most of us frankly would detest. In these times, I never heard of anyone even eating in locust, except in Africa. Still would be a life of sacrifice, considering I can’t even think of eating it. Honey is a good option though.
People know and speak of the Holy Spirit today however the truth , but John was the first one who spoke about it when he spoke about the ‘Baptism of Fire” and the baptism through fire and the Holy Spirit which would come through Jesus.
St. John was very outspoken as that is what a prophet’s duty is , calling out the sins and wrong-doings in society and in one of these instances criticized Herod of taking a second wife after leaving his first wife. The second wife schemed “ Herodias” schemed through her daughter to get the head of St. John and That is how St. John left this world.
Today people celebrate on his feast of St. John throughout the world and there are different traditional practices. People burn furniture on the beaches, they have a traditional procession and also they take dips in the beach or pools on the feast day. So enjoy, but its good to know about St. John.               

Sunday, April 21, 2019

The Holy week in the Phillipines

                                                      The Holy Week in The Phillipines

       Sitting down in my cubicle, I was watching some videos during the Holy week  when I came across this video of the Holy week that was taking place in the Philippines. I found it quite fascinating , as normally in my country the holy week starts with the Mass services and the Church rituals, but out here in the Philippines there was much more.

      Much more devotion, would be the right thing to say , is what happens in the Philippines where they have an amazing form of devotion to Jesus and to Mother Mary. During the Holy week, there are many things that you will see in the Philippines, where the devotion is practical and you can see the life events of Christ taking place in front on you.
 
    As you walk through the cities in Philippines, you will see the falagellants or the Penitents – where the Philippines. These are people who have these bundle of knives that they lash on their backs, and their backs are red due to blood flowing from them. They do this on the Good Friday as a  reparation for the good that Jesus had done for us by taking over our sins.

   You may argue that this is done even in Europe and that there are penitents all over Europe, who come as hooded penitents. The penitents of the Phillippines practice a similar ritual, but it has more blood to it. And while the Hoy week goes on, they have a real life way of the cross ( also called the Via Dolorosa) wherein you see the enactment of the Passion of the Cross, and you see the entire story from the time Christ was condemned to the scourging and the carrying of the cross to Calvary.

     There are also men who are willing to suffer like Christ, and are ready to go through all the suffering that Christ went through. So you see the people going on the road being hit by the Roma solidiers , and carrying the cross in the heat of the sun with an actual crown of thorns being put on their head, and while the crucification is taking place,  there are nails being hammered into their hand and legs, and it is an exact moment of the past that is brought back to life, where there are three crosses standing with three crucified men on the cross, of which one was completely innocent.


Phillippines also has the grand procession of Jesus and the various stages of the Passion and also the devotion to their local saints. There are huge floats created  and paraded throughout the city. Below are some of the images I have shown



Image Courtesy and Research: Hans Athaide

In the above images, you see that the  pictures of Jesus carrying the cross and also the pictures of Longinus who pierced the side of Jesus and from the side of Jesus came blood and water and healed an eye affliction that he had. He was a covert to the Roman Catholic faith and was even bribed to lie about the events , but he stood his ground.

The Holy weekend ends with Easter which celebrates the ressurrection and the rising from the dead of Christ , when nothing was found after the tombstone was rolled over. It is considered a time for celebration and is considered to be as important as Christmas because it is the fulfillment of the role that the Son of God had come to fulfill on  Earth. It is a festivity for Christians in Phillippines as well all over the world., and is marked with sweets and the Easter Bunny, and catching up with friends and relatives.

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Monday, March 25, 2019

The Shepherd

Wednesday, March 20, 2019
                                                  The Shepherd

                 “ The Lord is my Shepherd, there is nothing I shall want”

I hear this hymn all the time in the Church, and it sits in the mind like a chicken and then goes roaming off after a few minutes.

  But the things that has been staying in the mind is the word “Shepherd” . Shepherd …. Which means “one who tends to sheep”. In the Catholic faith, Jesus is shown as a Shepherd who constantly cares for his sheep who are the Catholics. But how about the profession, the one of a shepherd who goes around taking care of the sheep

  Well, for starters shepherding is an ancient profession which has its roots in history from the times of Christ and probably even before  . Whenever I would think of the Shepherd’s job, then the imagery would play on my mind. The flock of sheep are rounded up and taken over the hills and the shepherds would round them up to graze, and while the sheep are grazing the shepherds take a break for their lunch. Life is beautiful on the mountains as the shepherds enjoy their lunch amongst the beautiful green grass and shrubs. Life must be quite beautiful at that time, with the blue skies above and if the shepherds go higher then they would be clouds for company.

  They milk the sheep to sell the milk, also sell the sheep  as their meat is valued as well as their wool which is used for winter clothes. Buy the best part is the job. I always had the thing in my mind to be a shepherd and tend to sheep. Living in the green mountains and keeping the flock in order I feel is a great job. There’s a certain joy in doing it, and I wanted to told it wearing the clothes worn in the old Testament and I would definitely like to do it someday.

Some shepherds do have a hard job, if they have to go on the high mountain tops and they also have to pitch tents to stay and keep guard over the sheep. Plus it involves a lot of travel and staying in thin air, in addition to defending the flock from natural predators. But since shepherding has been done from such a long time, the shepherds definitely have all the tools of the trade.


First there was the shepherd and his sheep, and added to them were a couple of goats and donkeys. Donkeys were probably good for  transport and carrying loads.  Later, man trained dogs to herd the sheep for them, and among them was the birth of the sheepdog. They were some breeds of dogs that had lots of hair over them and resembled a sheep . This helped to confuse predators like foxes and wolves who always attempted to attack sheep and get their meal.

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Sunday, May 4, 2014

Confession


                 For me, myself I am a Roman Catholic from the Catholic church. I beleive in the
Catholic church, everything about it , but am not very active. The church is the mysticl body of
christ and is a vast body of celestial divinity on the earth.It showcases huge monuments,made from
the vision to bring heaven to earth, and what burns within is a bigger special event of the passion
which headlines the creation of the church besides the vast mount of knowledge that the
church has to offer.

 From the vast knowledge that the church has to offer, I'd like to talk about
the sacraments and one sacrament in particular - the confession.The sacrament of mercy,
the joy of reunion with god in purity, and to swim in the waters of peace unstained
from the creature called sin.

 I'd like to talk bout it through life experiences and how I came to understand the value of this
sacrament - and how it is required in today's times.This is the time I was a teenager, and
I wanted to explore life and see new things in life.I wanted to see the stars,and the skies and
travel.

    Youngster's hope, i guess? The experience was a little mixed up,some good and some of it bad.
The good part was the freedom that I got as a indiviual to break off from the clasp of my parents
who monitored my every move,and get the freedom of living my life.My freedom which I utilied to the
maximum advantage. Thought i didnt drink or smoke, I got into another addiction.

  The addiction of gaming - I used to play a lot, and it was great at the time and the start was
great, but later on I discovered once I would bunk my classes and just sit playing games the whole
day.There was a phase when I just got addicted to it,and by the time I found I was addicted, my
final exam for the year hd come up, and I failed the year - my first failure.

 There was one thing I had done at the time - I stoppped going to church, and while I stayed away
from church and got involved in this addiction, ileft something tht I would call a "spiritual
dryness" in my life.A hopeless feeling even if nothing was wrong.

  I had abused my freedom and my conscience pricked me. The guilty conscience brought this dryness
in my life.the Probbly as my sins were burning me, becuse I lied, I bunked college and never took
any interest in my studies, and wasted my parents hard earned money ,and spent the pocket money given
to me for these addiction of gming nd other pleCONFESSION

For me, myself I was normally not an active parishioner of the Catholic church. I beleive in the
Catholic church, everything about it , but am not very active. The church is the mysticl body of
christ and is a vast body of celestial divinity on the earth.It showcases huge monuments,made from
the vision to bring heaven to earth, and what burns within is a bigger special event of the passion
which headlines the creation of the church besides the vast mount of knowledge that the
church has to offer.

 From the vast knowledge that the church has to offer, I'd like to talk about
the sacraments and one sacrament in particular - the confession.The sacrament of mercy,
the joy of reunion with god in purity, and to swim in the waters of peace unstained
from the creature called sin.

 I'd like to talk bout it through life experiences and how I came to understand the value of this
sacrament - and how it is required in today's times.This is the time I was a teenager, and
I wanted to explore life and see new things in life.I wanted to see the stars,and the skies and
travel.

    Youngster's hope, i guess? The experience was a little mixed up,some good and some of it bad.
The good part was the freedom that I got as a indiviual to break off from the clasp of my parents
who monitored my every move,and get the freedom of living my life.My freedom which I utilied to the
maximum advantage. Thought i didnt drink or smoke, I got into another addiction.

  The addiction of gaming - I used to play a lot, and it was great at the time and the start was
great, but later on I discovered once I would bunk my classes and just sit playing games the whole
day.There was a phase when I just got addicted to it,and by the time I found I was addicted, my
final exam for the year hd come up, and I failed the year - my first failure.

 There was one thing I had done at the time - I stoppped going to church, and while I stayed away
from church and got involved in this addiction, ileft something tht I would call a "spiritual
dryness" in my life.A hopeless feeling even if nothing ws wrong.

  I had abused my freedom and my conscience pricked me. The guilty conscience brought this dryness
in my life.the Probably as my sins were burning me, becuse I lied, I bunked college and never took
any interest in my studies, and wasted my parents hard earned money ,and spent the pocket money
given to me for this addiction of gaming and other pleasures.

  These things depressed me to a major extent, and an uneasiness discomforted me.It was only when i saw
my failed marksheet for my FYBsc ( becuse i had never failed in any class before) and had completely
broken down that God decided to releive me.

  After a year, I decided to go to church for some peace in my stressed mind and that is where a
priest was sitting down at the confessional. So I just went to him,and confessed it all, and felt
a liberation from the negative bad side that had dragged me down.The priest was christ who pulled
me from the abyss.

   When I talk about sins - there are two kinds of sin, mortal sins and venial sins.Mortal sins
are of a heavier nature, also called grave sins while venial sins are of a lighter nature.

I have been going to confessions regularly since then because I know what a favor I am doing on
myself with God’s precious sacrament of mercy.

  I realized the value of this sacrament much later and how essential it is in today's world, when
I see people swimming in the filth of their sins - jealousy,anger, lust, betrayal and a constant
fight to compete and pull people down.The world feels like a hen house, and roosters crowing and
fighting for a handful of gold.

  The devil gains his power from these sins and holds his grasp on the people commiting these sins.
Sin is like a snake, injecting it's venom in your spirit and  killing the life and the light that we
 are supposed to present.

 People take a bath everyday to clean their bodies, but what about their spirit? How do you clean your
spirit?

  The people I met tody exhibit properties liked mood swings, imbalanced emotions, lack of courtesy nd
it feels as if a higher power acts over them, which has been observed in my personal experiences, but I
am sure it may be experienced generlly.

 That is the reson there is the need of confession, and also exorcism because Satan holds a better grasp
over the souls who are sinning.

 There is a need to constntly go to confession to throw off the arms of the devil round your neck and also
becuse we have a tendency to sin, being sinners and due to original sin.

  Confession is the protection against demons who wage a war every single second to pull your soul into
hell nd christ is your saviour standing between you and them.Confess and be cleaned to be a pure spirit.

  As i write this article, i wonder how god is just being with the amount of sins that are commited on a
daily basis while we sit sinning peacefully.

Saturday, January 25, 2014

Otis Redding

otis Redding Sitting on the Dock of the Bay

After a long hard day at work, I sat down on my computer to check my mail and keep in touch with what’s going on . The mixer buzzed on with pulp swirling around, and the teapot whistled the song of relief, after all the buzzing of activity of body and brain. The music station came up on the screen, and the music began to play.

Otis Redding.. the RJ introduced him and let the song play. The song played,"Sitting on the Dock of the bay" a blue’s song and as it played, it slowly started to the sink in the mind. I listened to the song, and had a sudden flash. After listening to the song, I got up and walked from home to the beach.

 This is the only place I could find where I felt I could think about the lines in this song. I never found the dock on the beach, but I did find some rocks. So I sat there, and let the breeze of the sea hit me. The beautiful morning chill had surrounded me, and I got to see the rising sun. So as I got comfortable, I started thinking about the song again, and how Otis redding through this song had connected to me. The lyrics of the song “sitting in the morning sun, I’ll be sitting when the evening come” is what a person like me, when disillusioned by the stress and the pressures of work and life come my way. Watching the ships go and the tides turn when you are completely down.

 When you have given a lot of effort and you’ve literally broken your bones of thought to get the results and what you get is an empty shell, that’s what you would do, sit on the dock of the bay. When the muscles of the mind don’t exercise the vigor that is required, and there’s that mental lifelessness. When you want to tell people how good it is, but the phones just bang down. All that effort, just in vain.The trumpets play on, but the mind ain’t strong.

 “ I can’t do what ten people tell me” is something that is similar for me.Can’t do what other people tell me, when other people come out their viewpoints it’s fine. But when they try to dominate, it gets irritating. And they have to be out back to their limits. I have my own way of thinking, and working and “So I guess I’ll remain the same” .

The breeze continues and the pores of my mind start opening, and the world seems like a better now.I can’t sit on the rock day and night, because it’s so good. Like a cradle of love, that rocks you to your senses. Can’t stay there forever, gotta get back to life.

 Thankfully, I have a leave, so for today I’ll just stay wasting time.When the lights are dim , and the sails are down, this is where I’ll come…. And hear Otis Redding play this song.

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Venice - the Fruit of determination


Everybody knows Venice, Everybody I Know loves it and to those who do not know Venice- let me tell you that it is one of the most beautiful cities in Europe.The cathedral of St. Mark to the city with its beautiful architecture and its waterways
where people go rowing in the canals, to its traditions and the beautiful culture of  music and fashion, are things that
are appreciated and form part of a culturally enhanced society,beautiful and in all its splendour.
            
 But that is something that we all know- Venice excesl in the business of tourism as it excelled in the 16th century as a port for international maritime trade, being a worldwide name than as it is now. Many people see the beauty, the glamour and the splendid architecture of the city. However, I know many writerts have written about Venice and will continue doing so, because it's just so beautiful. However, I want to focus on the perils that were undertaken to build this paradise.

  Venice, in origin is a marshland, full of thick marshy areasand its actually an island, in fact an island among a group of
Islands.In fact, venice was a place where the Italian people used to hide away when they were attacked by the scourge of God,Attila the Hun.The island was a hideaway where the people of Italy went and would return when the enemy left.Surrounded on all sides by water, the enemy did not waste their time following them.Later, due to more
frequent attacks, the Venetians decided to stay on the island permanently.

Venice at the start did consist of the original inhabitants - hunters, fishermen and salt producers.It may have been very hard for the Italian mainlanders to adjust to this place at the start, but for them it was better than being on the mainland and suffering problems from the enemy.So the question here is- was Venice built from determination or a need to
survive as they were being pushed out of their home by the enemy - this is something igot dicey about, wondering what it could have been.Probably,it could have been the need to survive which changed to determination somewhere
down the line.

The Mainlanders had come on this island, a completely new place for settlement.Out here, they had to find ways to live as this was completely a different territory for them. They were faced with the task of making something from what they saw as absoluetely nothing.Nothing could be grown on the land,they could not drink sea water and they had to start by building houses as they wanted to settle down in the island,and wanted to build houses. But they could not do so, as they were facing trouble from nature.the soil was very soft, just like quicksand,and houses would sink if they were built out there.However,they had to settle down there. This is where i would see the need to survive turning into firm resolute determination. Think about this - the Italian mainlander stood between two choices- the land he had to leave,and on the other side, he had the water. He had already been driven from his land by the huns,onto this island and the next thing he would go to would be water.And here he was, in the middle - between this amalgamation of land and water, and this
being his only chance.

 So the Italian gets determined,so he starts to work on his place.Thing would definitely have not been good at the start.Finding out solutions, the usual problem, frustrations and tensions crop up.BUt through trial and error, they keep refining themselves and finally move to the solution.They start putting wood trunks in the soft sand, and the wood is pushed till it reaches a hard spot underground.This wood forms the base for the house which would prevent it from sinking,wooden beams were put above it to distribute the balance, then there was the layer of water-resistant marble and finally,the stones for the houses.Thus, they built their houseson a solid foundations. The efforts for what I have written in six to eight lines actually must have taken quite some time and the only thing that would keep a person going in this instance would be determination.The food he could get was fish and other things from the sea,the water could not be used for drinking, but he could dry it to makesalt which becomes edible currency for him. Also since the ground was soft, and it was not possible to travel to all the places on foot, canoes were built and canals were made to travel around the island, and usage.So, through their determination, they not only acheived their basic needs, but they also built churches and St.Marks Basilica which is a pride for the city.They built a city out of the ashes of their defeat, and converted it into a huge Imperial empire.They conquered nature's obstacles through constant persistence, and built palaces and big houses to create a grand city which would dominate western Europe.

Today, Venice still does well, but has a major problem. The city is slowly sinking, as nature has come back with its obstacle. Does that mean that we may one see today, which was built with a lot of hardwork go under the sea and disappear without leaving a trace? or does that mean that the Venetians will rise up to the challenge and innovate a new route to keep their beautiful city from leaving them. I'm sure they will , they have history to their credit. Someone once told me that it took 800 years for this city to be built. So imagine what has gone into making this city and how precious it is.